Derelict (October:finale) – Sadone

And the brown eyes said it honestly,
I often wish she lied that day
but her words said it all
and there was silence..

She said its over,
and I just dont understand
She’s leaving me
that’s all there is to it..

I remember rain,
as my feelings unfolded right before my eyes
promised i wont say a word
kept it all inside..

Just right there,
wind blows through raven hair
as i look at her
it really felt goodbye..

I remember skin like summer in sunset,
her love is over
but i kept it all in,
just like anger
just like pain
the endless rain
the crashing wind..
The brown eyes, in her long raven hair
and skin like summer in sunset–

slowly walked away..

Light Before I Land – Sadone

Slowly she walks away from every thought
The shadows of her memory becomes more blur
Like the cold run of tears
On her warm cheeks,
The feeling was unknown…

Over and over,
I tried to see her visions…
With the same steps I followed her through
Just to see how low I can be
Repeatedly dying
Endless pain stirring…

Holding it all back
Wishing in all kinds of obscurity…
My feelings to disappear
And her memory
Forever gone…

Blissful dreams of endless sleep
Flying through clouds of
Pure silence…

As the sea of tears
Pass above my wings,
Odium shall be my light…

Just one time (October:preface) – Sadone

You close your eyes,
just to kill the conversation.
Then rain starts to fall, and so i thought
just when this moment seems like forever
By the sound of your message,
i felt you meant goodbye..
I’ll try to be calm
but its just impossible to match,
when the rain screams out your name,
slowly the moment is haunting me..
Your words are torn, but i kept it all in
just like anger
just like pain
the feeling will descent,
but the memory will stain..
I understand what your trying to say
no need to say it
I’m loosing my worthless breath,
thus soon we will fade..
But before it all happen
open your eyes
and Hear me..

Mekaniko – gat3keeper

tulad ng sabi sabi…
mahirap kumpunihin ang mga sira
minsan mas maganda pa iwasan ang mga bagay
kesa kumpunihin ang mga naiwang sira

nakakapagod na rin kung minsan,
pinilit mo naman baguhin ang mali
at punan ang mga kulang
ngunit sa huli,
talo ka pa rin
ikaw pa rin ang lalabas na masama
ikaw pa rin ang lalabas na salarin

wala naman taong perpekto di ba?
lahat tayo may pagkukulang
pero ang hindi ko maintindihan
bakit merong mga tao na nakatitig sa kamalian mo
at bali wala na lang ang mga nagawa mong tama?

siguro nga kaya naimbento ang salitang “talagang ganun”
dahil wala na tayo magagawa…
ang pagbabago ay hindi nagtatapos sa ating mga sarili…
ang pagmamahal ay may sukatan…
ang bawat utang ay may kabayaran…

ngunit sabi nga ng isang kaibigan,
“hindi lahat ng bagay ay parang utang
na pag nabayaran mo eh ok na”

tama!

marahil ngayon alam ko na,
na ndi sapat ang magbayad
kailangan ko munang masaktan…
kailangan ko munang umiyak…
kailangan ko munang maghinagpis…
at kailangan ko munang malungkot sa isang tabi…

ngunit hanggang kelan?

pagod na ko
at kung minsan nawawalan na rin ako ng pag asa
ang hirap kumpunihin ng isang relasyon
na alam mong maraming sira…

dapat bang iwanan na lang?
dapat bang lumisan?
o dapat hayaan na lang?

kelan ba naging doctor ang mekaniko?
kelan ba naging taga bigay ng gamot ang mekaniko?
at kelan ba naging taga tahi ng sugat ang mekaniko?

sa biyaheng ito,
ako ang mekaniko
taga kumpuni ng sirang relasyon
sa sasakyang pilit mong pinababayaan…

Maybe – gat3keeper

Maybe…

I’ve heard the sweetest songs in my ear
Touched the softest skin
Felt the warmest embrace
Stared at the most beautiful eyes

Maybe…

I’ve tried too hard
Seen a lot
Said too much
Heard enough
Cried too long

It’s all over my dear soul…

I must leave
Without looking back…